Dear Cancer,

You suck. 

Getting geared up for tomorrow. Chemo Day. Praying and hoping Mom's platelet counts are good as well as the rest of the blood counts. It SUCKS having to see the pain, fear and disappointment in her eyes when they told her last week she could not have her treatment. 

Not a lot of major issues going on. She is still battling the diarrhea which concerns me some. I'm attributing some of it to the way she has been eating. But that doesn't really account for all of it. 

This past weekend she did mention pain for the first time. A sharp, stabbing type pain in her lower abdomen. Scares me to think that it could be something related to the cancer growing/spreading. Sigh... dammit this ride sucks. All the ups and downs, I'm never quite sure what to expect and cannot plan anything. Just have to take it all one day at a time. 

So, my notes are written and my questions are ready. Now we just wait and see what tomorrow brings. 

Cancer you need to just go die somewhere. You are really not welcome in my world!!!